1 year blogiversary

Yesterday was my one year blogiversary on this blog. I started this blog on a very early Friday morning last October when I couldn't sleep. I had too many thoughts, feelings, and confusions swimming around in my head and needed some sort of medium to let it all out. I had been struggling for 10 months to figure out what was going on with my body knowing that I couldn't get pregnant on my own (at that time) and just biding my time waiting and wondering what was wrong with me.

I found just what I needed with the blog. It has been therapeutic in so many ways! I made the decision very early to keep it as a private blog for the most part (like an online diary or journal).

When we found out we were pregnant in May, it was unbelievable!!! I had never expected it to happen the way it did, but God had his own plans. It was also time to open the blog up and make it more public letting anyone interested read it. I didn't expect many readers to go back and start at the beginning. I'm sure some of the past posts were negative or hard to read. However, I have heard from several readers that they did just that. They started at the beginning and read ALL the way through. Thank you! It means a lot that you read the history that brought me to where I am now.

This "blogiversary" date got me to thinking about how things change. How one year ago, I was in a MUCH different place than I am today as I sit here typing feeling my little bean wiggle and kick around (it's almost dinner time). How all those tears and frustrations that filled most of 2008 and the spring of 2009 are just distant memories that seem to have been ages ago.

I have gone back on multiple occasions and re-read my own posts. One night I even started at the beginning and re-read it all the way through. I cried, I laughed, and I cried some more. It seems so weird to say but I'm not sure I would change a thing. All of that "experience" has brought me to this exact moment in time and I am thankful.

Now I sit hear thinking about what the next year ahead will bring and excited to see what time will bring.