100th post

100 posts! Really? If you are reading this, are you tired of me yet?

I have delayed writing this for a few days because I noticed it was going to be my 100th post and I thought it should be "special" or a "good one," but I have had so many thoughts run through my head that it's time to post. It could be the 100th post and contain 100 questions. Do you think I could write that many questions? I am sure I could.

Today I head to the doctor again. It's an "off cycle" appointment in my opinion since I'm on day 6 and they really won't do anything. I finished taking the Letrozole this morning and now we just wait for day 12, 14, 16, etc to do some more sonograms. Clay and I do have a long laundry list of questions for the doctor. Hopefully we will get them all asked and understand the answers. I also hope we remember the answers and don't experience "appointment amnesia" again. I really pray that I find some peace in the answers and the overall plan or road ahead. I could use some peace today. My soul feels restless and dreary. (The weather isn't helping either) My heart is heavy and discouraged today. I could use a hefty dose of sunshine and hope.

Some of the questions we are going to ask the doctor include:
What is the big game plan?
How many months in a row do we do the same thing?
How soon do we talk about surgery?
Why was my temp chart weird? Ovulation day? Triphasic?
Why do we go from an every other day schedule to 3 days in a row around ovulation? Won’t the tank be empty? (that’s clays question)
Should I be on a diet? Would it help?
Can we test my hormone levels again since its been 6 months on the meds?
If we get my hormones under control will that help my skin? (he may not know this one)
Do we keep off appts like today’s just to “catch up” since we drive 2 hours (roundtrip) to see the dr for like 15 minutes? Or should I try to move them to keep them on sono days?
Why did it take so long for my period to start when I stopped taking the Prometrium?
Can the Prometrium affect my temps? (that may answer the chart question)
Does having surgery mean I have to skip a month?
What happens if the timing is off for May and June since we will be traveling a lot? What do we do then?

So that's really only like 17 questions (if I counted right which I am not sure I did), but they are swirling in my head a million miles an hour and I sometimes wish I could just tune them out or turn my head off. It would be easier. But Life is hard right? Trials make us stronger in the end, so I keep moving. I will try to update later for post #101 with some of the answers.