Must have been a fluke....

I took another test this morning. This was the one I was to report back to the doctor. Clay got up around 4 or 430 and I woke up. Of course then, I had to pee. I got up and peed in my SpongeBob cup, swirled the stick, put the cap on, and left the room. Clay and I walked back in 2 minutes later to check the results and ........... there was NOTHING. No line, not even a faint one. Thursday's test must have been a fluke. Today's test showed a big empty circle and a BIG FAT NEGATIVE. Well Darn IT! I worked up my hopes all weekend and I was so excited. I was so hopeful this morning for the test and then WHAM..... a BFN. I have seen other woman on their infertility blogs use the BFN and I thought well it's just a negative. Why does it have to be a BIG FAT Negative? Well, I understand now. I shouldn't have taken the test Thursday. I should have been patient. I shouldn't have let my hopes build up. It was just hard not to.
Clay and I went back to bed. I was sad. I wanted to let myself cry but I did not. I will not!
At 6am we woke up and decided not to go to work. I was tired. I didn't really sleep well (if at all) between4 and 6 and my sinuses were still messed up. Clay was still tired too so we played hooky today. I slept from 6-10am and then again from 2-5pm.
I did call the doctor this morning at 10 to share the negative result. The nurse called back and said they would return my call again after talking to the doctor about the next steps but I am to stop the progesterone "inserts" and wait for my expected period to start. My luck now will be that the stupid period doesn't come even though we know that I ovulated. Explain that one? I guess I will just wait the next 48 hours and see what happens. I hope the nurse also calls back tomorrow to let me know what we will be doing this month/cycle.
On a positive note, my next appt is already next Tuesday the 24th, so I don't have to wait long to take the next step.